Actually, I am wasting far too much time on my blogs...

I should be praying...but am dry at prayer as usual...
I am trying to meditate on I am the vine you are the branches...the trouble is that as an independnt american, I am more enlightenment than christian...
I do my own thing, try to do my best, and offer it to God.
I need to be silent and listen to him, and let him work thru me.

One thing about being here is that I no longer have deeds to give...yet I don't pray any more than when I was busy working...

On the other hand, I am not as anxious and pressured as before...and despite the fact that I loved being a doctor, I still have no desire to take up that responsibility any more...I am still worn out and burned out...when it comes to doing work, that is...

But cheerful and not depressed about doing nothing...