strange dreams

I dreamed I was in Africa visiting a rural hospital, and they welcomed me and offered me a job...and when I went to the living quarters they showed me a room, and I said I would have to go back to the car to dicuss it with my brother, but then I half woke up and remembered I had left all my medical licenses lapse about the time when my husband died.

Searcing my memory I thought I remembered the small hospital. But I can't place it.

A strange dream because I feel guilty that I no longer practice, but I lack the physical atrength for long hours and mainly I lack the courage to make life and death decisions for fear of making the wtong decision or diagnosis. Indeed, I can't even read medical articles without getting severe anxiety, and sometimes flasbacks to similar cases I have treated that went wrong...true most of those cases were not my fault, e.g. incurable cancers or the cases I knew about but not mine. But the panic is still there.

Sigh.

solar still

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