what do you wish for/

I WWAS READING A BOOOK WHERE AT A PARTY PEOPLE WERE ASKED WHAT THEY WISHED FO]FOR, AND MYanswer would have been: To be useful.

ThennI realized that despite all my memoriesnof bad things that happened to me as a doctor, never the less, being a doctor was my core being, and it made me happy.

Similarly, Ruby is visiting and she was desciing how she arranged a party for folks and how muxh fun they had, but the whole idea bored me. 

Then I realized that many of my happiest vcations were different: Either camping wi m boys or doing  a working vacation as a doctor or combininb both with the Naional guard.

Too work oriented I guess...